30 Days of Kink Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?
Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?
I first became interested in BDSM as a young child. Yes, as in I was probably around five when I had my first thrill of being restrained. It was actually into self restraint as I tangled myself up in a sleeping bag, naked. I don't know why it was thrilling, but it was for me. As I grew older, capture themes were very popular among the kids in the neighborhood. Cops and robbers or Pirate ship were ones we liked. Even freeze tag was changed up a bit for capture. While I wanted to be the damsel in distress as the smallest kid, I was usually tasked as the aggressor. Since this was the only way I was allowed to play, I did it, grudgingly.
As I grew older, into my preteen age, I started to learn how to tie people up. By the time I was fifteen, I happily corrupted the other kids my age. I learned to make my own ropes through old bed sheets and robe ties. I would gather the girls together as we would corner a guy and tie him up. Then we'd take pictures. Around the same age I read The Sleeping Beauty Trilogy. The depravity in this story really turned me on and I started to experiment with penetration. Oddly enough, first time I tried penetration, it was anal. I used hairbrush handles, anything cylindrical. The one scene I really wanted to re-enact was collecting roses with the Queen and Lady Julia. I found the domination of two women extremely sexy and a huge turn on. It was also the first time I questioned my sexuality. I wondered if perhaps I didn't like boys and that I should really like girls more. I was in a sheltered area back in the early 90s so I didn't know or understand bisexuality.
Where I lived, there was only homosexuality or heterosexuality. Needless to say I was confused in both my BDSM desires which I didn't know about and my sexuality. I also didn't know what being bisexual meant. I ended up being confused and told people I was undecided. I'm happy to say that I now a kinky bisexual switch. As long as the person attracts me, I'm turned on - male, female or other.
I first became interested in BDSM as a young child. Yes, as in I was probably around five when I had my first thrill of being restrained. It was actually into self restraint as I tangled myself up in a sleeping bag, naked. I don't know why it was thrilling, but it was for me. As I grew older, capture themes were very popular among the kids in the neighborhood. Cops and robbers or Pirate ship were ones we liked. Even freeze tag was changed up a bit for capture. While I wanted to be the damsel in distress as the smallest kid, I was usually tasked as the aggressor. Since this was the only way I was allowed to play, I did it, grudgingly.
As I grew older, into my preteen age, I started to learn how to tie people up. By the time I was fifteen, I happily corrupted the other kids my age. I learned to make my own ropes through old bed sheets and robe ties. I would gather the girls together as we would corner a guy and tie him up. Then we'd take pictures. Around the same age I read The Sleeping Beauty Trilogy. The depravity in this story really turned me on and I started to experiment with penetration. Oddly enough, first time I tried penetration, it was anal. I used hairbrush handles, anything cylindrical. The one scene I really wanted to re-enact was collecting roses with the Queen and Lady Julia. I found the domination of two women extremely sexy and a huge turn on. It was also the first time I questioned my sexuality. I wondered if perhaps I didn't like boys and that I should really like girls more. I was in a sheltered area back in the early 90s so I didn't know or understand bisexuality.
Where I lived, there was only homosexuality or heterosexuality. Needless to say I was confused in both my BDSM desires which I didn't know about and my sexuality. I also didn't know what being bisexual meant. I ended up being confused and told people I was undecided. I'm happy to say that I now a kinky bisexual switch. As long as the person attracts me, I'm turned on - male, female or other.
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